This is still here

I didn't even realize this is still here. Does anyone even look at this anymore?

Holidays

So I have a new interest. It must be a pre mid life crisis going. I can't seem to focus on one hobby. I have decided to try belly dancing with a dear freind of mine Spencer. It starts Jan. 7 and should be lots of fun. I figure it will be good quality time with my good friend and I must admit I will look good doing it.

Then there is the relationship front. Things are doing well for now. I have been learning a lot about if we will be compatable or not to continue. Many things say yes to me but others say definatly no. We are similiar but not if that makes any sence. I am just not sure if the "not similiar" things are so far stretched that they will conflict with each other as time and comfort levels come down. Needless to say I am spending x-mas with him. Looks like I am meeting "mom" though. Not sure how I feel about that, but I don't want to be alone on the holiday. I think I will drag him to meet my little girl in return.

Stepping outside my box

So I have come to two different interests very recently. One is guns. Guns have allways been a source of uncertainty and I have allways been nervous around them. I have recently gained a huge interest in learning about them and shooting one. This interest comes from a co-worker whom inherited a gun shop and is currently liquidating the business. I am unsure if I will follow through on this one, but it is a current interest. Those that read, what are your thoughts on guns?

Also, I have recently started to read a book by Neale Donald Walsch Conversations with God an uncommon dialogue. Only 30 pages in, I am quiet intrigued. I am also quiet confused. Only being 30 pages in, I am captivated and being challenged mentally by the thought process that goes with this book. Hopefully as I read more, I can write more about it. I will just let it rest for now.

So God, guns and work fill my time. Go figure.

New friends come and gone

So last Sunday I had a really nice dinner with my dearest David. We havn't been able to do our weekly pizza and wine do to both of us being busy. We decided going out for a quick bite at applebees would be a nice quick way to catch up. Well on my way back to dropping him off I decided to bug my old co-worker Nathan whom I love and miss dearly.

I dropped by and had a really nice time meeting his partner Patrick and actually see my fav. old co-worker in a setting outside of work. A quick hello turned into a hour and half chit chat. I am so very excited to have these two in my life. Both are quality people with good hearts. I am also very excited to get to know Nathan more. I feel a sence of comfort and family with him. A connection at a different level. My big brother I call him. The brother I never had.

Then there is Mike. The guy I met on match and have been dating for a little while. I think it is comming to a close. I am really sad and upset about this situation. It is so hard when work gets in the way of something that I feel could grow into something special. Friends he says........ He wants to be friends. That is just hard for me when I have started to have feelings for him. Going backwards just doesn't work to well for me. I hope I can figure something out to keep him in my life. He is another quality person with a good heart. Nothing is set in stone at this point, but things are not looking to good on this front....

Only time will tell.

Winter Blues and working to much

So it's not officially winter yet, but I am feeling the effects of the cold weather. This holiday season will be an interesting one for me. I have allways been in a commited confortable relationship which has been really nice since I don't get to be with the biological family for the holidays. This year I turn a new table and look for company..... I am excited to spend Turkey day with great friends, I wish I could contribute to the cooking. I am such a terrrible cook. I guess I will be bringing a few bottles of wine.

It has only been just over two weeks of working a billion hours a week between the two jobs and I am wearing myself down. The money is really nice but I cant wait until things slow down. I just have to get myself back to the financial comfort level I am used to. I shouldn't have any more big purchases after tomorrows big horse trailer purchase.

Dating and insecurities

It has been quiet a while since I have posted on here. I have been batteling with learning life with dating. I have not been part of this scene for quiet sometime so the rules are a foriegn thing to me. The balance between giving to much attention and not enough during early stages is a hard concept for me to handle. I tend to be the type of person to jump in with my whole self and see what happens. This especially happens when I find someone of great potential.

I have been on Match.com and have met someone that I could possibly see myself with for a while. ........ I just hope I don't overdue it and scare him away with my insecurities.

Wilma

This has been quiet a busy week for me. To start Miss Wilma is keeping me very worried. The new forecasted landfall schedule for her to hit Ft. Lauderdale is on Monday, the day I am due to depart for my trip. I am constantly watching the updates, but alas still no update to change my trip. I will be quiet depressed and very moody if the trip does not happen.

On another note, I have been flying high with my new man Mike. We met last Sunday for coffee and spent about 1 1/2 hours chit chatting. It was nerve racking but a nice meeting. I had to leave due to prior plans with my dear Andrew for dinner. Well that first meet has exploded since. I have seen my dearest Mike every day since Tuesday. It is really fun to have the little butterflies in the stomach. It's a feeling I havn't had in a very long time. This phase of dating is allways the best time. The getting to know each other and learning new things. It does however scare me a little about how similiar our growing up has been. Seems a little unreal to me, but again there is still more to learn. At minimum it will be nice to spend time with him.

Last night we had a nice dinner at Ocean Club out in Easton. It was nice, had a meet and greet with his business partner. Though I was very tired, it was nice to meet someone in Mikes life along with visiting the office.

Tonight I am probably going to overwhelm the poor boy. Kona my roomy is having a cookout in which all together there will be 10 people here at the house. This will be a test though to see how gay friendly he is. If he can't handle himself out the door he goes.