New friends come and gone

So last Sunday I had a really nice dinner with my dearest David. We havn't been able to do our weekly pizza and wine do to both of us being busy. We decided going out for a quick bite at applebees would be a nice quick way to catch up. Well on my way back to dropping him off I decided to bug my old co-worker Nathan whom I love and miss dearly.

I dropped by and had a really nice time meeting his partner Patrick and actually see my fav. old co-worker in a setting outside of work. A quick hello turned into a hour and half chit chat. I am so very excited to have these two in my life. Both are quality people with good hearts. I am also very excited to get to know Nathan more. I feel a sence of comfort and family with him. A connection at a different level. My big brother I call him. The brother I never had.

Then there is Mike. The guy I met on match and have been dating for a little while. I think it is comming to a close. I am really sad and upset about this situation. It is so hard when work gets in the way of something that I feel could grow into something special. Friends he says........ He wants to be friends. That is just hard for me when I have started to have feelings for him. Going backwards just doesn't work to well for me. I hope I can figure something out to keep him in my life. He is another quality person with a good heart. Nothing is set in stone at this point, but things are not looking to good on this front....

Only time will tell.

Winter Blues and working to much

So it's not officially winter yet, but I am feeling the effects of the cold weather. This holiday season will be an interesting one for me. I have allways been in a commited confortable relationship which has been really nice since I don't get to be with the biological family for the holidays. This year I turn a new table and look for company..... I am excited to spend Turkey day with great friends, I wish I could contribute to the cooking. I am such a terrrible cook. I guess I will be bringing a few bottles of wine.

It has only been just over two weeks of working a billion hours a week between the two jobs and I am wearing myself down. The money is really nice but I cant wait until things slow down. I just have to get myself back to the financial comfort level I am used to. I shouldn't have any more big purchases after tomorrows big horse trailer purchase.

Dating and insecurities

It has been quiet a while since I have posted on here. I have been batteling with learning life with dating. I have not been part of this scene for quiet sometime so the rules are a foriegn thing to me. The balance between giving to much attention and not enough during early stages is a hard concept for me to handle. I tend to be the type of person to jump in with my whole self and see what happens. This especially happens when I find someone of great potential.

I have been on Match.com and have met someone that I could possibly see myself with for a while. ........ I just hope I don't overdue it and scare him away with my insecurities.